Alright to begin, I had this written last night and the WordPress App on my iPad once again failed me. So after finding my words gone, and my evening wasted, I gave up last night and decided to try once again tonight to recapture what I had.
So, back to being just plain Jenny, my weather reporting moments are hopefully behind me. I was actually able to make it out on Friday afternoon to meet up with my Hubster and see our new home at Fort Drum. Oh wow, I was HOME. Now for those of you that do not know, Fort Drum is in Watertown NY. Which is quite honestly one of the coldest locations a Army girl could get stationed:
- Jefferson County’s climate is characterized as humid-continental. Winters are long and relatively cold; spring is cool and short; summers are warm and moderate, autumn is also warm, but usually short.
- The climate is influenced by the proximity of Lake Ontario, particularly during winter. The relatively warm lake water provides moisture to air masses moving across from the west, which often results in “lake effect” snowfalls primarily in the southern half of the county.
- Average annual snowfall is 93 inches in Watertown, but approaches 200 inches in the snow-belt areas in the southern section of the County. The average total annual precipitation is 38 inches.
- Lake Ontario has a moderating effect on near shore temperatures, reducing the extremes of cold in winter and heat in summer.
On average, there are 161 sunny days per year in Jefferson County. The July high is around 80 degrees. The January low is typically around 10 degrees. The County’s comfort index, which is based on humidity during the hot months, is a 58 out of 100, where higher is more comfortable. The US average on the comfort index is 44.
Saturday was spent being a “Haus Frau” and I thoroughly enjoyed nesting into our new house, organizing our kitchen, hanging photos. It was fabulous!! We also went to the gym in the afternoon and I got a grand tour of base.
Really not a ton more to tell, a very laid back weekend. We went to Syracuse on Sunday to have lunch and meet some of the local dive groups, dinner at Sackets Harbor where we got to watch the ice fisherman as we sat at our warm table looking out at the view. And Monday came to quickly and my afternoon flight was there way quicker than the one on Friday that felt like took forever to take off.
43 more days until I begin the next chapter of our life in New York. Until then, back to my studies!
So again here I am, the new JennyO weather girl at your service! It has been a very frustrating (but could be worse) 72 hours. Starting on Tuesday we were getting all the “Winter Blizzard” warnings for Augusta, and I swear everything started shutting down immediately, canceling schools before the rain even started. But they were right, by Wednesday night? WOW the ice rain started and did NOT stop. I was holed up in my apartment working on my CISSP studies all day. And watching movies
About 2000 when I was settling in to FaceTime with my Hubster, the flicker of lights gave warning and then – the darkness. I had no idea that darkness would last all through the night and on for, well I left 16 hours later to head to Charlotte, and it was still off. Not just me, but almost ALL of Augusta. Power lines were dropping streams of ice onto the roads filled with cars, people trying to find food that was cooked (if I’d been home, my camp stove and propane would have helped) or gas for their cars to keep them running to get a break from the cold and recharge their smart phones.
A McDonalds and Arby’s had their drive through open, but the cars backed out onto Washington Road, so while you sit and wait wasting gas? Finding out the gas stations only take cash IF they are open at all was a rough surprise to many (myself included). I just got on the 20 and started driving, two exits later still no gas. I finally called my Class Leader and said I was headed out. Even if my flight wasn’t until 2200 there was no reason to stay here.
The roads were clear, about 35 miles into my adventure I was able to find a Shell station and get a full tank (I still had a half, but why worry about it?) About 30 minutes past Columbia the sun came out, the sky went blue and my heart lifted. It was warming up and the view was glorious.
It was not to last, as I pulled off the ramp to the Airport, my phone rang with an 800 number. US Airways was canceling my flight. They said due to weather at my destination airport. No, US Airways had canceled all flights going into Charlotte that night:
“US Airways was the only airline to formally cancel all remaining flights into and out of Charlotte all day because of the storm.” – WCNC.com
Thank you US Airways, lets just CANCEL them all. I really didn’t understand it & neither did the thousand other folks I stood in line with for 3 hours to get our new flights. I was lucky, I’m scheduled to go this afternoon and I can only hope being earlier in the afternoon but not early in the morning or late at night I have a chance in hell of getting out of here. Many people were told they wouldn’t get out of here until Saturday, Sunday. One girl had had her flight changed 6 times that day, the other gent I was standing with just got a rental car and was planning to drive home to Tampa.
Like I said, its been a rough few days. I want to see my husband, get to nest a little in our new home, and get a break away from the worries of studies.
On a positive note, I could NOT have been stuck in line with 2 more fun individuals! We bonded over a moment at the half hour mark of standing in line. The line got split in 2 to help funnel us to the agents and a woman behind us started seriously complaining about how she couldn’t be in the right line because the people she was standing with were way UP THERE, are you sure this is the US Airways line?? Omg, seriously she had to have asked that 10 times, I finally looked at her and said, “Ma’am, I have told you 10 times we are all US Airways customers waiting to rebook, I don’t know what else I can tell you” turned around and just ignored her whines, that’s when I met “Florida Bound” we both joined forces in our back turn and tapped away at our phones, a few minutes later were were joined by “Houston Bound.”
“Well will you look at THAT!!” HB muttered behind us, FB and I looked up. The loud complainer had moved out of line, walked back up with the people she said she was standing by and reinserted herself into line. Well I’ll be! The only joy we had at the end of it all? We all ended up at the agents desk while she was still in line, I know, very catty of us. But seriously, negativity in moments like that? Karma is a bitch. We all just accepted our misery and made the most of the time together.
At one point I was on hold with US Airways and was dancing to the music. You know? You get a little loopy, I just said screw it and let it go. It helped for a time, then we met others. London bound, Germany returning. A man who had the best laugh and joked with me as we stood ready for the next agent that we would race to see who was first.
I have to breath and say “First World Problems” Today is another day, thanks to my sister I was able to get a hotel (they are practically booked all over Charlotte) sleep in a warm bed and talk my way into a late check out. Now I’m going to go put on my running togs and go check out their gym to get a few miles in and some push ups and sit ups. I’ve literally been sitting on my ass or standing in line for 2 days. And Tuesday I really couldn’t say I got to the gym with a last minute appointment rescheduled to avoid the weather warning.
Not the best photo But 3 miles on the treadmill and a little Yoga later I am feeling a little better, some camel and plow to help the shoulders stretch out. Ahhhhh.
Rarely am I impacted so deeply by what I would say is a very “Zen” or hippi-style talk, but this video speaks volumes. It’s a very short clip, I took the time to type the words he speaks in case you are not a video clicker. It made me think of all the times in life I spent DAYS … no WEEKS worrying about something that on reflection NEVER happened. But I wasted all that time on it.
I am currently applying this to my situation right now, seems to me whenever I travel Mother Nature decides its time to have a good laugh. We have here in Georgia another Winter Storm hitting, this time rain turning to sleet and possibly snow but causing a nice layer of ice over the South. (When did all my posts start focusing on the weather?) Well this weekend is important to me because it would be my first chance to see my husband since New Years. I already got a cancellation for my flight out of Augusta, luckily for my I live 2.5 hours from Charlotte – the next leg on my Journey. So plan B? I have a rental car ready to head to Charlotte tomorrow. By tomorrow at noon its supposed to be up into the 40s and the storm off and running up the coast. Wish me luck. So that brings me to this again. While I have gone and gotten Plan B in place, TODAY I have things that need to be attended to, and watching the doppler isn’t going to change what REALLY is the road conditions tomorrow at noon. I will just have to wait till that is the REALITY to know, and attempt to work on stopping my imagination from making visions of what I think it will be, because that does NOT exist now.
An unrealistic perception of life – is the basis of fear.
People are not willing to live – People are not willing to die
That is their whole predicement right now
The fear is simply because you are not living with life you are living in your mind.
Your fear is always about what’s going to happen next
That means your fear is always about that which does not exist
If your fear is about the nonexistant your fear is 100% imaginary
If your suffering the nonexistential, we call that insanity
So people may be just socially accepted levals of insanity.
But if you are afraid, or you are suffering anything which does not exists it amounts to insanity isnt it?
People are always suffering either what happened yesterday or what may happen tomorrow
So your suffering always about that which does not exist simply because your not rooted in reality
Your always rooted in your mind
Mind: One part of it is memory another part of it is imagination
Both of them are in one way imagination, because both of them do not exist right now.
Your lost in your imagination that is the basis of your fear, if you were rooted in reality there would be no fear.
What do you think? Are you one of those people that lives worrying about the future,
Or do you live in the Present and the NOW?
Facebook goes nuts on Thursday with old Flashback photos from friends of mine posting old pics, I love it. One of my buddies goes way back a lot and posts his photos of when he was a little kid. I haven’t been able to participate really.
My photos have been in a storage shed in California. When I moved to Germany in 2008, we sold all the furniture and packed up what we needed to ship, and what I couldn’t bear to part with I put in storage. Funny 5 years later how much easier it was to part with the majority of storage. When I went home for Thanksgiving, my best friend and a buddy of mine drove over to the storage shed, backed up the truck filled it and gave most of what was in there to Goodwill. It was actually? Pretty frigging releasing to just TOSS it. To know that shed no longer sits there, yea it was sweet to see memories of events or old crap but really? I have new crap. It is just – stuff.
But the photos!? Oh the photos – now I know why women run into their blazing house to grab that family album! All of mine from a certain point are digital and mostly stored on Shutterfly as a backup. But certainly not the first 30 years of my LIFE. Anyway I have begun scanning some of them, mostly what I have are high school photos from those albums, some from middle school, and a bunch from frames that I left to give to Goodwill.
With a snow day yesterday, I found myself sitting with a cup of coffee going through memories. I know I should have studied, I DID go to the gym (my shoulders today are screaming proof of that) but with photos like THAT to go through? Oh wow which would you do?
So my walk down memory lane for the moment complete – I’ll leave you with one final giggle. While I was truly a girl of the 80′s and embraced my hair bear moments of Aqua Net and black eye liner, I also dabbled in the bad girl Metal Moments. Oh yea, hanging out with the bad boys. Listening to Metallica, hanging at the park. Such rebels. I’m glad I was born in this time. ”Girls Just Wanna Have FUN!”
Okay no final hour text saying I can enjoy another snow day. Time to get to work.
Do you ever step back in time and flip through photo memory lane?
Hoping you enjoy your snow day if you get one!
The Blizzard is coming!!! LOL this would totally be me if I hadn’t lived in Bavaria Germany for the last 5 years. Thank gawd I learned to drive in this weather, it doesn’t scare me anymore, but I can remember my first slide on a road while driving. I sat in the Jeep and shook for about 15 minutes as the locals drove around me honking horns and shaking fists.
I’ve been off the blogosphere for a while. Not because I don’t love life and what I’m doing but because quite honestly its been pretty intense and sitting down to write has just been that one thing on the plate that I’ve put on hold. You know, studying, golf because it’s GORGEOUS out lately 9supposed to be back to 60 on Saturday) studying, running, studying, swimming, studying, yoga
I am two months from graduating my FA 53 course, YEA! Which means I have a CISSP exam (think a 6 hour exam on all security matters Geek) to culminate my training. As much as I had hoped on getting Microsoft certs, this one is my nemesis and is taking most of my time. So with that said:
When I think about how to let go and just focus on the present instead of looking back at the past, it all seems so very simple. “Just do it,” right? Unfortunately human emotions are more complicated than that, we hold onto the past. In some cases the adage that you are doomed to repeat history if you ignore it is part of that reason. We are taught that in historical analysis we find the faults and failures and repair them in future endeavors. At least, I think most of us do, this may be my military upbringing clashing into my emotional behavior.
But what if we are looking at those past behaviors and holding onto them as crutches? What if we continue rehash the behavior over and over again in the name of learning from it, only to continue to just bring up the emotions and never deal with the behavior?
In my first post of the year on intentions, I had posted that I shared with my husband a practices from a Core Desired Feelings workbook:
“FEELING: How do you want to feel in your life? Do a stream- of- consciousness riff: concepts, words, feelings, images. This is about optimal, positive, nourishing, and good— very good— feelings. Put them all on paper. Let a tsunami of desire flood you. Invest in yourself. Want what you want. Go.” Exerted from the
CDR Worksheet shared freely from Danielle LaPorte
In looking at the words and emotions I used to describe myself and my husband’s response, he has since stated that I’ve been negative on myself for all the years we have known each other, in fact it’s one of those things that he really dislikes about me! How I dislike myself. Seems a little strong but honestly it was told to me in a loving manner. And as we laughed about it, I shared with him that one of my intentions is not to speak negatively about myself. I wake up each morning and I’ve begun a mantra given to me from a dear friend, it is not always easy to say and sometimes I have to say it a few times a day.
No I don’t actually do that, but it is funny we laugh at it and jest at the skit. But if we said that to ourselves as often as we say “I’m not good enough, people won’t like me for me” we might have a few more real relationships with people and more importantly a real relationship with our wonderful self.
So my intention, my mantra: “I am strong, fit, wonderful, beautiful, healthy, and caring. I am a loving mother, wife, daughter, and friend. I am intelligent and open to learning all variety of ideas. I am complex and emotional, and that is fabulous.”
We are back in Georgia, DH is with me for a week, then off to NY to sign in to the next duty station and move into our next home! So excited we have on-post housing lined up, never thought I’d want to live on-post, but looking forward to it there. Upstate NY and the “lake effect” of Watertown has me not wanting a big commute for my next job.
On the exercise and healthy eating front: This morning we had a great healthy breakfast and I added in a basic triple berry and kale smoothie as a juice drink to our eggs and hash browns. After a good wait we headed for the Savannah Rapids Pavilion where we got in a 5 mile loop!
So hello 2014! And so begins – running statistics Hey I’m not all about the emotional intentions this year, the physical intentions need to keep up too.
- Distance 5.02 mi
- Duration 00:48:00
- Pace 09:34 min/mi
I had hoped to post yesterday, but a surprise evening out with old friends of my hubster trumped returning home last night, even with the warnings of a snow blizzard coming in, we took the chance with the early afternoon window and arrived at Maggy McFly’s for a fun evening rehashing old stories and being told little known high school event tales about my husband.
Prior to arriving we had an hour to kill and DH had asked what I’d like to do. I had grabbed my camera when we were leaving the house in the hope to grab some snow photos, so here was my chance. He laughed and said do you want to get in some “Critter Harassment” his running joke that I use my camera like a weapon, stalking my prey. You can almost hear the old running Steve Irwin documentary “As Jenny moves in for her fully composed shot, a docile goose turns throat punching her as the others escape to safety!” LOL okay I didn’t get throat punched by a goose, the Canadian Geese are a little less likely it seems to come at you, or maybe its because they don’t have their babies to protect. (yes I have been chased by a Momma Goose when I got to close for a photo of her fuzzy kidlet).
We stopped at a park near Meridan, CT and I hopped out. I remember having come here before for a Christmas drive to see the lights they have set up. Its a lovely park, and I wasn’t alone in the desire to photograph its beauty. Another woman with her hubby at the wheel parked next to us and hopped out with her camera. While she went towards the snowy trees I circled around the side of the frozen lake and began “stalking”
All photos are SOOC and are mine, as I’m still working from my iPad and the have yet to find a photo app I truly like that can watermark my photos, I’ve gone back to basics. Hope you are staying warm and safe. Wish us luck on our travels home tonight being on time!
I’ve begun writing my intentions, and in doing so I’m finding its not going to be like creating a list of “Goals” or a “Resolution.” Its deeper than that, and its a little like cleaning out the attic. You pull out a box fully intending it to be a quick sort to send to Goodwill, trash, or keep. Next thing you know the sun has slipped past the windows, the shadows have deepened, and the day is gone. More work to do the next day.
My first “assignment” was to brainstorm descriptive words about myself, some turned into little descriptions, while some words became statements about what I envision me being.
Try it, get a blank page, turn off that negative voice and just let you describe who you think you are without the fear that someone will say “well aren’t you self centered!” It is liberating. And when I got done, I took a deep breath and shared it with my DH. He looked at me after he read it, and said “This is what I see you as already.” One of the most amazing and heart swelling moments we have had, I felt like doing a happy dance. Maybe I should have!
Ahhh, 2014? I think we are going to be a more loving year. Let me know if you think this is something you would like to try or that you have done before. Any recommends on this journey?
I have to say – “WTH!?” 2013? Gone, over, finished, completed, out the door? How did 365 days pass so quickly? At least it feels like it, reflecting back on the events of the year so many events! Finishing up a deployment in Afghanistan, a trip to Ireland, moving from Germany back to the United States, the schools that both DH and I have been in soaking up more knowledge to bring us futher into our military careers. I guess that all takes up 52 weeks. Of course that doesn’t include the physical and nutritional changes in our lives, that part just kept evolving as we made the priority for the gym, run time, and healthier choices in the kitchen. (No this last week of festivus gluttony does not count).
So when I got my annual roll up from WordPress giving my my 2013 year in blogging? I figured I’d do my own little annual report on my year:
- WordPress: “The busiest day of the year was April 1st with 77 views. The most popular post that day was Afghan Carpet Ride.” Really? WOW funny its one of my families favorite photos of us too.
- Army “us”: Preparing to redeploy from Afghanistan was quite literally the busiest time of the year as he had a whole new Corps rotating in. For me, I’d say it was when I found out I was in charge of a briefing given to the DoS. I have never felt so much pressure.
- Just moi: I had to go back and look at my blog from last year. You know where I set the Goals for the year and then promptly went about doing whatever 2013 gave me? Yea that one. Really I’m not that far off, most of my goals were fitness. I didn’t lose the weight but honestly? My give a damn about the scale is busted. No really. I give a shit if the scale says 135 or 138. I’m happy, I’m healthy, and I’m fit. This will feed into a 2014 intentions. I promise not to get too long winded on my reflections here. So lets see, Photography? Oh man, well Nick Carver emailed me about my lack of action on my online course. Soooo, while I did take photos, I’d say my education on my camera went right off the deep end of neglect. But I have to say, my FA53 course at Fort Gordon has NOT let my education and use of the brain slide. I’m okay with the need to take a hobby and let it slide to allow myself to focus on a career goal. I think that’s about it, summation of my year is pretty positive, its never exactly as I plan on the front side looking towards the future.
One thing I have learned about the life my DH and I lead. We only have control over SO much of it. Ask me at the beginning of 2012 if I thought I was going to Afghanistan? Um, NO. Did I? Uh, YEA. 2013 I thought I could do all the forces PT tests, but I got sent back from ‘Stan 3 months early, hmmm win one for me on the life back. With all that said I think what I’d like to do this year is more along the line of – what are my intentions? Because I feel like physically, I’m meeting my goal. I did my month of 5k’s, I have a 12k in January planned. I don’t really keep a log of lifts, and what body part I’m focusing on seems to change with what NEEDS to be worked on. I sound wishy washy, but quite honestly I’m focused when I work out I just really don’t seem to have the desire to walk around with a book and record my workouts, but yet I love looking at my history on Runtastic. Oh well, what works for me right?
I will post my 2014 Intentions separately, I think they deserve a little more time to develop. The next step for me is emotional balance, being able to have more calm in my heart. Well, this post is starting to turn into a 2013 Ramble! Time to get my running shoes on and get my moving meditation on.
Have a wonderful and joyous Happy New Years EVE!
The cast was spectacular their voices were truly beautiful and the costumes! The costumes were divine. The colors and drama on the stage raised my emotions on many occasions. I was enthralled at how much action and effect could be brought to the live stage. Particularly the underground boat scene where the candles rise from the stage in the fog as the boat the Phantom steers with Christine as his pupil makes it’s way to his hiding place.
The theater was gorgeous as well. I am unsure of its age but it felt as though I could imagine days gone by and ladies and gentleman in their finery. The staff impressed me with the complete zero tolerance of the use of cell phones and cameras. Any flicker or glow was met by a flashlight in your face. One negative was intermission. The lowering of the curtain was met by a few minutes of confused silence as we all sat in our seats wondering if this was the long awaited for break. Yes, they have a bar and you are allowed to have your tasty adult beverage in your plastic Phantom souvenir glass for a mere $5 charge. But I go astray – so no bells or chimes to indicate intermission nor were we sure how long that intermission was. All we knew was the lights began I dim, the curtain rose, and the flashlights came out in full force commanding you to your seat and sternly demanding cell phones be turned off once more.
Besides our little confusion the opera was breathtaking and a fantastic break from the digital age of movies for our entertainment needs. I had asked my husband for years that if we got the chance I would dearly love to see this Broadway show, and this Christmas he made my wish come true.
Another Bucket list item – CHECK!